Sitting down to write a blog post sounds like so much work, but my daughter has been reminding me often that I need to blog more! My goal for April is to catch up on my posts!
I’m going to share a piece of my heart. You know I love getting past all the “fluff” to the heart of things. I’ve never been good at small talk and love a good heart-to-heart! So grab a cup of tea…..
One day I had just finished running on the treadmill at my gym. I was standing in the corner talking to my sweet friend, Jerry (I’ll write about him later!) Another gentleman walked up to talk to us when he turned and asked Jerry if he had every seen me run. He told Jerry that I ran so effortlessly and I remind him of a deer. (Please know both of these men are older than my dad and were not flirting!) I turned to the guy and laughed and said “yea, a very old deer with weird legs!” Immediately I thought “didn’t he notice the weird way I kick my leg out when I run.” I could name all the things wrong with how I run. I laughed it off and went about my workout.
Later that afternoon, the Lord used that situation to teach me something about myself. I journal while I read the Bible and usually that’s where the Lord reveals Himself to me. During this time, God asked me why I didn’t just accept the compliment. Why do I put down or dismiss the things He blesses me with!
But Lord, I’m not a runner!
Then, He told me it is bigger than running.
Over the next several weeks, the Lord started peeling back the layers. You see, it’s not about running. It’s about my thoughts about myself and lies I’ve believed.
Through prayer, the Lord reminded me of something. When I was a little girl of around 5 years old, I overheard someone say that I’m not an athlete. I was much too sweet to be competitive. I took those words and they became a part of my identity. I immediately believed the lie. Years later when I started running and working out, I would tell myself without even realizing it that even though I love it, I’m not good at it because I’m not an athlete. It wasn’t just running, He started showing me other lies that I hid in my heart.
The Lord started revealing that if HE was for me, WHO COULD BE AGAINST ME! Why did I buy into so many lies about myself? Why do I spend so much time playing the record of other’s thoughts for me in my mind instead of His thoughts of me?
Y’all, I never even realized I was doing it. So I started seeking…okay, Lord, then what do you think of me? Oh my goodness!!! Guys, if you don’t know what God thinks of you….just ask Him….because it will BLOW you away.
What are you telling yourself? You will never be enough. You will always be big. You can never lose weight. You will always struggle in life. You’re not a good wife. Your marriage isn’t going to work. You are too shy. You are too loud. You are (fill in the blank.)
When I was reading the story of Gideon in the Bible, the Lord showed me I was like Gideon. (I’m going to paraphrase Judges 6, so please read it for yourself.)
The Angel of the Lord appeared to Gideon and said “The Lord is with you, mighty man of valor.” What? Gideon wasn’t a mighty man of valor. He was frustrated, working in a cave…far from mighty.
Then the Lord turned to him and said, “Go in this might of yours and you shall save Israel from the hand of the Midianites. Have I not sent you?”
Guys, Gideon wasn’t mighty. He was actually afraid. He proceeded to remind the Lord of how his clan is the weakest and he is the least in his father’s house. But you know what I love in this passage is that the Lord turned to Gideon and told him what He saw in him….not what Gideon saw in himself. Isn’t that how God works? He sees us different that we see ourselves and the world sees us.
Friends, it’s time to stop listening to the lies and start standing on truth!! Dig into God’s word and find out how he sees you. Go in this might of yours!!!! Have I not sent you? If God is for you, who can be against you.
Goodness, thanks for reading this long post. I could have kept writing but it’s time for me to make supper. 🙂 Love you, sweet friends!!
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